Because I know how hard it can be. You’ve just left a comment on that site about how much you’ve always hoped that Rose and the Doctor would finally kiss, then you go to another site to leave the same comment about Dean and Cas and you’re hit with the realization that for some reason it isn’t the same.
That if you write that, some people will get uncomfortable, others will remind you how that’s just your sick fantasy and that something’s wrong with you they don’t even know where you’re taking that from because surely it can’t be the way things have been going in the actual show that made you want it.
When voicing your wishes like any fan, it feels like you need to be careful, and moreover like you should avoid certain words that are too specific or that will make people think that you mean those words to be taken in a romantic way, which you do. Basically, you feel like you should be ashamed for calling the things you hope for and the things you already see in their relationship by their proper name.
There’s a taboo about it. Some articles on sites will avoid talking about Dean and Cas as much as possible. In some other articles the author will maybe mention their rapport, only to subtly stress out that it’s just a friendship, nothing more, ever, of course. In other articles, you’ll see some ambiguous words, but no-one will ever state what they really think. I’m convinced, frow what I’ve read around, that authors exist who wouldn’t be opposed to a “canon” romantic relationship, or who do think that Dean and Cas’s relationship is already romantic, but the best they’ll do in their articles is dare call that a “relationship” and admit that Cas is closer to Dean than he is to Sam.
And I have no doubt that some of these people might be be trying, but really no one will just address it. It makes speaking your mind with utter honesty and appropriate language even harder, because you feel like it really is socially unacceptable to be that sincere. You feel like no one other than fellow Destiel fans is on your side.
But I’ve been seeing so many of you just… boldly go there (pass the reference) and leave comments and state things clearly in this last year. And no-one’s ever been where we are and it’s scary. There’s no history of this yet, no rules to follow, no example to look up to from other times that this happened because this never happened. I’ve seen you be brave and type words like “love” and “be together” and “romantic” and “kiss” and at the end of the day that means standing up in front of a crowd of people yelling at you that you should keep you shameful little thoughts in the private space of your own room or head and saying: “no”.
It can be really difficult to do what you do but you do it anyway and because of that I understand it may not be much but I’m proud of you.
And now go on that fucking site with the Cas speculation and leave a fucking comment and let no-one fucking stop you you little rainbow shits